Curve Ball

Back in July, life threw a curveball and I wound up pregnant, quite surprisingly, again. You know when society (and the box it comes in) says the morning after pill works as long as you take it within 72 hours? Well, I took it 12 hours later and it didn’t work.

I thought I was being responsible for preventing pregnancy and it turns out life had other plans, and that’s okay.


But those of you who would implode if they got pregnant, NEVER use plan B/ the morning after pill. I did some research and found if you ovulate within that window before you take the pill, it essentially becomes ineffective if there are some strong swimmers in there. So $40 later that tiny little thing was pointless.


I was about 4 weeks along the process when I figured out what was happening. My period was late, which it had been for the last 5 months due to stress I presume, but something inside me said it wasn’t just a late period.


I had an old test lying around. It was about 6am and I decided to take it before my daughter woke up. I thought to myself there was no way I was pregnant, but I took it anyway. It was an electronic test. Moments later one word popped up on the tiny screen. One. ‘Pregnant.’


I still didn’t fully believe it at the time. I had taken the pill, there shouldn’t be any reason it didn’t work, even if it was the Walmart brand. So I went to a 3D baby ultrasound place. When I called to make the appointment I explained to the man over the phone I took a test that said I was pregnant and just wanted to confirm. So for anyone that doesn’t have health insurance or doesn’t want to spend the money with the medical industry, for $30-$40 you can find out if you are in fact pregnant and often the day you call. As I said, they told me I was about 4 weeks along with a big ‘congratulations’ when I left.


To be honest, I didn’t even cry. I was laughing. In shock, to say the least. I also was not worried though. I find that no matter what happens, when I think rock bottom is right around the corner, I am always okay. I for one, feel that is God watching over me, because my whole life and how I’ve created it to be, feels like a miracle and I am so thankful every day that I am successful as a single parent and what I do to support us, while also being fully present in my daughter’s life.


I don’t want to get into the father situation here but I can tell you being single and pregnant has every emotion on the board. It is relaxing, it is easy, lonely, hard, exciting, painful, enjoyable, the list goes on. My three year old has been amazing at understanding when mommy doesn’t feel good and when I’m tired. I can’t imagine a better daughter, even if she’s also way to independent and sassy for her own good sometimes. I know she’s going to make an amazing big sissy!


With that said, this isn’t going to be easy but I am so excited. It is going to take everything in me to financially support myself and two girls while remaining present in both their lives. Right now I’m taking it day by day, with only 6-7 weeks left. I’m not scared of having two kids and being a single parent, I’m not scared of being lonely, as lonely as I feel sometimes because I know in my heart it will be okay. This little girl is undoubtedly a blessing. It’s so important to believe in yourself and be confident because there is only one other option and that option won’t get you anywhere. And believe me, society isn’t always thrilled when you’re single and pregnant.


I was a little scared of having a boy actually, but it’s a girl! Woohoo!


Stay strong. Believe in yourself. If you feel lost or have no idea where to begin as far as making a change or reaching your goals, feel free to reach out to me!