Look At This Madness

It's no lie, most of us know I have dated, talked to, and "girl-friended" a lot of guys. And for what? Because I can't stand to be alone? Because I like the attention? Because I want to figure out what I want in a future spouse? Because it's fun and I get tired of the last one? The truth is, I believe everyone deserves a chance. Naturally, I am a bubbly individual and as one of my friends said, I am also a "boy magnet." Keep in mind I say that as humbly as humble gets. I don't know why, I can't help it - guys enter my life as easily as change goes in a jar. I enjoy talking to people and generally get a long better with guys (I feel there is a shortage of females in Riverside) yet at the same time, I have lost a lot of friends because they begin liking me past just being friends. Looking at love-life past, I would only consider two relationships to be serious. One two years and the other a year and a half. Aside from that, some were flings - w...

Elsewhere Madness - noun - 1. Madness caused by the desire to be anywhere but where one currently is 2. A strong desire to move elsewhere that doesn't involve places one has seen a million times 3. A madness that comes over an individual at the sight of a place they wish to travel  *note: when all of these feelings are taken into account as currently being experienced, it is time for a move or vacation. *Example sentences: 1. I'm starting to feel elsewhere madness after sifting through my pictures from Seattle, Washington. 2. After not have gone to the beach in three months I am starting to have elsewhere madness.

I was outside of the vintage store I am working at watering the plants when he walked past and said good morning. I kindly smiled and returned the casual conversation, "good morning." a few minutes later he walked by and began telling me something, "Yesterday a white guy calls me nigger and what do I do? I turn around and punch him. well after that he began running and who's the one who gets written up by the cop? Me. He got off on everything. you know, people better be careful what they say around here. I tell my girlfriend to expect the unexpected in every situation." "I'm sorry to hear that."  "Well anyway, you have a good day, God bless."                                                               "You have a good day too." Whether or not his story is true, it disgusts me to know there are still individuals who lo...

It amazes me how something so innocent can be completely wrong. Something such as a kiss.  Before hand, everything feels wonderfully good. There's flirting, teasing, and convincing talk - when all of a sudden the moment you were waiting for happens: the kiss.  An amazing kiss. One love sick soul is romantically pushed against the wall and two pairs of lips become intertwined. The moment is heated. It happens so slowly yet in the blink of an eye - because before you know it, it's over. All the build up for what was thought to be an innocent kiss - when really, the innocence was taken away the moment lips touched. It wasn't worth it. Although one day it might be, this day it was not and for that, feelings of regret are what's left.  After all, it was only "just a kiss." But wait, it was never "just a kiss." In the same way "something" was never "just something" but a thing of importance - a thing to be valued.  If your hea...

This is what marks the start. The start of what may or may not make sense - aka the madness that goes on in this gooey pink thing that is my brain. I know, I'm already sounding so intelligent. At this moment I am not entirely sure what the future posts have in store so I feel it is only right to say, I cannot entirely give you a proper introduction. Yes, I know I was repetitive with the word "entirely" - This is what I like to entirely call emphasis.  SO here it goes - 10 facts about me: 1. My name is Paige 2. I am an avid coffee drinker and life simply doesn't make sense when caffeine is excluded in my daily activities (I am addicted and am well aware of my problem)  3. I love to laugh (hence my Instagram username: laughalot0912) - what comes with the territory of loving to laugh is laughing at all the wrong moments, like when my friend told me his dog died (thank god he was kidding)  4. I have a dappled chiwini (Chihuahua and Dachshund hound mix) named Stel...